I LOVE INDIA BUT I DON’T HATE PAKISTAN

I don’t judge you so don't judge me. I love my country. If you read this please calm down both countries have lost people and both want revenge but this is for those who want peace. Now my thoughts on “surgical strike” by India on 29^th September 2016 on Pakistan. A few months back terrorist from Pakistan attacked Pathankot and now Uri where 18 soldiers were killed in action. Have you noticed I said terrorist from Pakistan and not Pakistan army. There is a difference. Take a break and think about it and only then read ahead.

After Uri Indian people army and civilian were “outraged”. The cricket matches cancelled, SAARC boycotted and Pakistan artist sent back. Indians wanted “revenge”. BJP formed Government of India had promise “retaliation” and a “surgical strike” by Indian Army took place. They destroyed parts of “Pakistan occupied Kashmir” and not parts in “Pakistan”.  Pakistan Army first denied such attack and then said they have Indian soldier’s captive/dead. Indians are happy. Their thirst for revenge satisfied. Yipee Indians taught Pakistan a lesson.

Why am I the only one (so it seems) jumping in joy? The big big words used above in commas mean less and less when I think that Kashmir is a political problem. There is no military solution to it. My Indian soldiers die and then avenged. Same story at Pakistan side. There more so since military does not come under civil administration and is largest source of employment. It reminds me of bloody ping pong ball game played by politicians over a span on 70 years.

Is my solution so bad that we still want conflict and a bloody history and hate filled future? You ask what my solution is. well simple increase connectivity between common people of both countries. More cultural, sports, activities, school trips, college trips, religious trips, historical trips etc. across both countries. This will enable both the countries to bond. Yes there will be conflicts some people won’t want peace yes you and I might lose someone we love today but it would be for better future for the next generation. Can’t we accept this much pain and swallow our hate? Pakistan and India when they become interdependent how will they fight without causing hurt to themselves. This will take time and probably more than one generation but yes it will happen.

This is a big topic and I don’t want to bore you. You will say we tried this method but for how long? Every time one incident happens i.e. people die either in Pakistan or India hate speeches are heard and all activities are stopped. This takes us back years all hard work lost.

There is no pride in taking one step going back two steps and then leaving a thorn filled part for future generation. So much to say. I guess if you have not started thinking by now for alternative solution you will not think.

Finally we will only be left with one solution WAR. And believe me when I say no one wins a war. WW1 and WW2 taught the world. We have two options and you decide which you want 1. Prosper together after suffering pain for a while or 2. War and if we survive let’s celebrate with widows, childless parensts and corpses.

Please peace no war.

 

 

I Thank Thee

Waited for you I did

Changed for you I did

Left the dears for you I did

Left was I by you for you

Confused was state of mind

Broken is state of my kind

Stolen are my heart’s smiles

Left alone am I for miles

Gathered courage I have

Dried the tears I shed

Collected my heart’s pieces  

Focused my mind I have

Sweet is your tongue it is

Sharp is your brain it is

Free is your spirit it is

Erratic is your heart it is

For people I love

The abandoned dreams

The unsaid hurt

The changed me

I thank thee

Almighty the teaching

Almighty the patience

Almighty the hurt

Fly I shall now

Hear I shall not

Look I shall refuse

Flight I shall take

Nothing has changed

Everything has changed

Not bind am I now

Not free are you now

I thank thee

WHO WON THE WAR??

Today is the day when people are celebrating 70 years of D Day in Europe.  They are just so happy that Nazis were defeated that they are blind and deaf to the pain and hurt of war. They want to celebrate the warriors who fought for them and won. They forgot or are ignoring the scars of these people and scars of the family and friends.  They blame countries like Ireland for not joining the war.  "Veterans of D Day" get honour and applause today.

Before I mention anything further let me state this, people who fought in WW II and any war on whatever side were and are brave men. I don't think many have the guts to keep going forward when you know you will die when bullets or worse are coming towards you. No one wins a war. Read it again and feel these words.  

We won the Nazis lost.  Forgotten are the fact that Nazis were human (don't get upset I have not forgotten what happened to Jews). Everything said and done Nazis did have something I can't point what brilliant military, great ideas or persistence that they brought the entire world to the pace they wanted. Almost entire world against one country. What a victory. Give credit where it is due. Nazis brutality against Jews was horrible and the word horrible is so small to describe what happened. But after victory what happened in Berlin and if you don't know what happened then let me tell you rape, gang rape, humiliation of women and children. This was not done by Nazis lost but allied forces. Celebrate now. I would love to see that.

War results in shattering of more than economy. Everyone loses family, homes, emotional support, love, hate, hope. Imagine that and feel it, living in fear day after day. I am not saying go into depression or say this is too sad. Everyone is celebrating. My only wish is that people just think about consequences of war and makes a promise no war ever. Every life is precious. It could be the most evil life that you have ever seen but the minute you forget that evil is also is a life and you have no right to take it, is the time you have also become evil.

After WW 2 people made the family of Nazis feel so guilty that you forgot that these family (like a child of a Nazi) had no idea of what was happening. Why make them feel guilty for life and make them apologise. It was not their act. Jews suffered again I repeat I don't deny that. Where are the allied forces apologising for action in Berlin. Who will apologise?

These are my thoughts and you are not bound to agree with them. I don't want to offend anyone but want you to think about this and think about future.

HUMANITY - STAND UP

Over the last couple of days I have read a lot of news and heard a lot of opinions about a various

issues. I am worried. It won't be wrong to say that I am very worried. I am not worried about one

part of the world or one religion. It worries me that I am hearing news about pregnant women

stoned to death (whatever the crime), 300 plus women kidnapped allegedly raped and held as

hostage, ministers saying people of Muslim religion are bad and should not be associated with,

honour killing, gang rape, child killing, men stripped etc.

I am worried that peoples' morality or you can call it humanity is dying. I am not talking about people

who throw the stones or who kidnapped. They surely need help but what about those who stood at

the side. I am sure there are more people standing at the side and if they wish might be able to stop

this. But there is no will or they are so scared to stop these horrendous acts. People fighting about

religion and saying wipe out people of other religion. Which religion says it? Assuming it does are

we so dead that we can't see that these religions are 100 years plus old and we can't see/feel the

pain of the people. If you don't like something sure don't get involved with it but to make innocent

people part of these atrocities is so sad.

I don't have to go far there are times when I am fearful of what will happen if I intervene in

something which I think is wrong. I might have to go to police station or explain why I am trying to

protect someone or something. My family will worry and what if something will happen to them. My

family and friends don’t agree with this but understand my concern. It churns my stomach.

If today we don’t stand for injustice happening to others then no one will stand for you if you

face injustice. Yes it is time consuming and an inconvenience but surely stopping injustice is more

important than your or my time and inconvenience. I understand that we are worried for ourselves

and our family and vice versa. Having said that I would say that let this generation is the one which is

worried so that next generation does not have to deal with this.

I don't want to live in fear or angry and I want change. My story might not always be great but I will

be part of the start. I pray that you and other people will also join and soon your children will live

in a just and fearless world tomorrow. Get up and join. You can start with just some small things.

Say cops no harassment. Domestic violence, we won't stand for it. Bribery, why are you still alive.

Be with me and my soul we can have a great future. Not today or tomorrow but surely for your

children. Let's be peaceful live and let live in a fearless and humane world. Stand up.

Married and unemployed

Yeh wow its such a happy occasion I got married. Yipee I am going to join my husband in a far away land and we will rule the world. Its ok to leave my job and work a little on marriage and try to study or do something else. The honeymoon is over and I remember something i read "lucky is the bride who is married in sunshine (or something like this) and  blessed is the bride with a little money of her own".. In the love and apparent hurry by family, friends and yourself we forget the real self and are lost. By the time I realised where I was it was too late couldn't get a job I wanted. Well so life taught me a lesson of patience. Still learning that lesson. now trying to start in something from the beginning. Its an emotional roller coaster. I get a job interview didn't get the job ohh dont forget the time when I am applying and I get no interview calls. I hate those emails and letters which are two paragraph long. the first saying how great I am but how much was the competition and second para saying "sorry" and "wish you the best for your future endevours" yes i got so many emails and letters that I learned the entire format. Wondering why the companies dont change the format. I guess its one of the mysteries of life like what came first the egg or the chicken. Not to mention sometimes I got emails about jobs that I had forgotten I had even applied for. The great multinational companies take months if not years to respond to an application. The same two paras and the same heart break. Then I swallow my pride and ego and apply for any and all jobs I can think of. I move forward and lucky I get a job and now how am I supposed  to get all the documents in a day. Give me a break where is the fairness in this the companies takes weeks and with all their resources and I get only a day. Anyway I manage some how and guess what since I am a "temporary agency worker" (a new term I learned here) I am thrown out of the job on Friday morning and the reason is that the business plan of the company failed.I am mortified as this is the first time I have been fired and I am speechless and in big shock. Am I supposed to work the day or leave and why is my throat so dry suddenly??? I have never been fired and my only saving grace is that I can hide in between so many other people who have been fired along with me. I dont remember how I reach home but I do. Its a miracle. I share my plight with family. Some are supportive and understanding but others are unhappy with my "lack of effort". right like I want to get "fired". Man if you have never been fired I hope you never do but I also must tell you that the feeling sucks and more than anything else I have ever faced before. In shock and now further humiliated and hurt that I "lack effort" I really want to jump of the balcony. But I figure that I will get hurt a lot more and I hate to get hurt. So I do the next best cry for hours alone and then sleep. This heals and I get up and apply to all jobs I can and my fighting spirit is renewed. Its life and I need to move on. Ohh did I say happy weekend. (Ohh dont worry I have removed the person from my must call family member list. Ya I do have such a list) So again I have to go through applications, interviews and god willing and company's being kind will get a job.

the reason I wrote this is not to make you sad or get anti marriage or any negative thing like that. I hope that it might help any person who wants to get married and is leaving his/her career to consider again (despite what family and friends say.) Love is great but if you are not satisfied and happy you cannot share it so get a job first and then shift/move/ leave your job. Believe me life would be a little more happy and content. On that precious lesson that life taught me and I shared with you I take my leave for now. Live life king size and remember you came alone in this world will suffer alone and leave alone. rest is history

Born Alone

A long long time ago I saw the world and I thought what nice colours and how interesting the people are around. I decided to explore this new place called world in front of my eyes. Soon I realised the "rules" and "hindrances". There are so many walls; so many divisions, I wonder why and for whom. I did not get anything to the place but it is kind and gives me all and more than I want. I am greedy now. I am human and what a tragedy. A free bird trapped in "humanity" . Live life on my terms as my gift is precious, but people around me felt betrayed. No I did not make any promises. Charged and declared guilty for a free heart. Unable to comprehend I "compromised" . Will live by your rules and regulations but now I have a heart filled with unknown fear. My bag pack is packed but in storage. Bound by silence and fears of others. My gift may get wasted. Should I act for the smiles and your happiness and be contend? Should I spread my wings and fly to the unknown. My heart pounds and tells me you never know what is behind the clouds, the hills, who will smile with you, what if you fall??? There are no smiles here, I might loose direction but a spark says go ahead, Something tells me to move and take a step forward and I might break hearts, hopes but its my gift and I have to enjoy it. You may or not be there tomorrow. Should I follow the spark and burn or remain contend. The spark flames and says move but fear holds my feet. Born alone , live contend and then die alone. So why was I born alone. Here I am born alone. Please don't be-cone me oh mountains or rivers oh fresh air for though I am born alone smiles depend on "humanity". Let me value the smiles till I can and then oh wind carry me away as I was born alone and want live unbound.  

Marriage

A big event. A decision when taken seemed big but a commitment which is bigger. So I got married. The first thing one realises is that both partner's entire life changes. You do things that you would not have done earlier. Contact with friends lessens. Oh not to forget family commitments... For a person like me I felt my wings were chopped. ohh dont worry so much only initially I felt that.. LUCKILY my partner gives me a lot of space to fly... but sure loads of changes. from a night person to a day person (OKIE honestly i try) .. from no cooking or kitchen to cooking (thank you internet baba).. from work to no work (this hurts)... from being a chatter box now wondering what to talk to friends about (change in circumstances/country/ people nothing adverse).. and life moves on.... 


I thought about how to describe the changes but realised now that it is not possible as ones whole life changes... so either one has to experience it or see others suffer ;) .... Any ways I will keep this short as I am still adjusting to "married" life and cant be judgemental... Will post again when and as I understand more... Earlier I lived as I wanted now I live as we have to and want to (sometimes have to compromise).