Married and unemployed

Yeh wow its such a happy occasion I got married. Yipee I am going to join my husband in a far away land and we will rule the world. Its ok to leave my job and work a little on marriage and try to study or do something else. The honeymoon is over and I remember something i read "lucky is the bride who is married in sunshine (or something like this) and  blessed is the bride with a little money of her own".. In the love and apparent hurry by family, friends and yourself we forget the real self and are lost. By the time I realised where I was it was too late couldn't get a job I wanted. Well so life taught me a lesson of patience. Still learning that lesson. now trying to start in something from the beginning. Its an emotional roller coaster. I get a job interview didn't get the job ohh dont forget the time when I am applying and I get no interview calls. I hate those emails and letters which are two paragraph long. the first saying how great I am but how much was the competition and second para saying "sorry" and "wish you the best for your future endevours" yes i got so many emails and letters that I learned the entire format. Wondering why the companies dont change the format. I guess its one of the mysteries of life like what came first the egg or the chicken. Not to mention sometimes I got emails about jobs that I had forgotten I had even applied for. The great multinational companies take months if not years to respond to an application. The same two paras and the same heart break. Then I swallow my pride and ego and apply for any and all jobs I can think of. I move forward and lucky I get a job and now how am I supposed  to get all the documents in a day. Give me a break where is the fairness in this the companies takes weeks and with all their resources and I get only a day. Anyway I manage some how and guess what since I am a "temporary agency worker" (a new term I learned here) I am thrown out of the job on Friday morning and the reason is that the business plan of the company failed.I am mortified as this is the first time I have been fired and I am speechless and in big shock. Am I supposed to work the day or leave and why is my throat so dry suddenly??? I have never been fired and my only saving grace is that I can hide in between so many other people who have been fired along with me. I dont remember how I reach home but I do. Its a miracle. I share my plight with family. Some are supportive and understanding but others are unhappy with my "lack of effort". right like I want to get "fired". Man if you have never been fired I hope you never do but I also must tell you that the feeling sucks and more than anything else I have ever faced before. In shock and now further humiliated and hurt that I "lack effort" I really want to jump of the balcony. But I figure that I will get hurt a lot more and I hate to get hurt. So I do the next best cry for hours alone and then sleep. This heals and I get up and apply to all jobs I can and my fighting spirit is renewed. Its life and I need to move on. Ohh did I say happy weekend. (Ohh dont worry I have removed the person from my must call family member list. Ya I do have such a list) So again I have to go through applications, interviews and god willing and company's being kind will get a job.

the reason I wrote this is not to make you sad or get anti marriage or any negative thing like that. I hope that it might help any person who wants to get married and is leaving his/her career to consider again (despite what family and friends say.) Love is great but if you are not satisfied and happy you cannot share it so get a job first and then shift/move/ leave your job. Believe me life would be a little more happy and content. On that precious lesson that life taught me and I shared with you I take my leave for now. Live life king size and remember you came alone in this world will suffer alone and leave alone. rest is history